Monday, November 12, 2012

I'm Finally Here!

I've had this blog created and ready to use for quite a while.

My original purpose with this blog was to help with my weightloss.

However, life got in the way, and I ended up not using it like I wanted to.

Over the past few weeks, my life has changed in ways that I never expected. God has been working on me and preparing me for something much bigger than myself.

It's been a long 2+ years since Joshua died. His death rocked me to my core. It shook me up, tore me apart, and stripped me down to nothing.

But here I am. Still standing. Still believing. Still trusting. And still putting one foot in front of the other, trusting in God's sovereignty.

God has healed me from the anxiety. I have handed over my grief. I still experience sadness, but not the overwhelming and paralyzing kind of grief that once held my life in it's grip.

Now that those things are surrendered at the feet of Jesus, I feel Him telling me to pick myself up. Find myself again. Get rid of the physical weight that I am carrying around. Start taking care of myself. Figure out who I am again so I can effectively reach others.

So, here I am. Starting slowly. Finding myself.

Being a stay at home mom, I've really let myself go. In an effort to simply survive, I've found myself in a place of not even owning a single pair of jeans. Over the past 2 years, I have gotten rid of every single piece of nice clothing that I ever owned. I haven't owned a non nursing bra in over 3 years. My make up stash was down to mascara and 2 shades of eyeshadow. My hair dryer was dusty and shoved in the back of the linen closet.

It may not seem like much to some, but I am consciously making an effort to take better care of myself. I'm starting out slowly, but it has been my goal to make sure that every morning, I get up and do my hair and make up. Even if it's just to put on sweats and a sweatshirt and change diapers all day, I need to do something for myself.

Please. Join me in the next chapter of my life. This will be a chapter of saying goodbye to bad habits and saying hello to finding myself. It is a chapter of allowing God to form me and mold me.

He is preparing me. He is telling me to get up and move forward. So I obey.

Obedience has never felt so good in my entire life.


  1. Good for you, Jill! I'm a Jill too -- and I've recently made the same commitment to myself. I have recently finished grad school and survived "2 kiddos under 2". With our kids getting older, and finally free from the confines of school, I'm ready to dedicate a little time for me. Best of luck to you on your journey! :)

  2. Yay!!!! Can't wait to follow your journey. :)

  3. So very excited for you Jill!!! Can't wait to see what all God has in store for you on this new journey!!! Sending love your way!!

  4. Very excited for you! I'm hoping to be right along with you. Gotta get back on that treadmill!

  5. Can't wait to see what He has in store for you! Happy to be here to support you! xoxo

  6. Ooohhh, how exciting! It's like picking up a novel and knowing it's going to be super good!! New beginnings & all...

    Love the blog design too! I really want to do something different on my blog, but Designer Blogs prices have gone through the roof!!! $50 for Premade (once upon a time, they were $10). And custom designs start at like $200 or something like that now. Holy sticker shock, Batman! No can do. I'll have to check into Vintage Pear (looks like they're under construction right now). :-)

    1. Vintage Pear is owned by my dear friend, Dana. She's extremely talented and very reasonable! If you want her contact info, let me know! :o)

  7. Oh Jill! I'm so thrilled for you & so proud of you (is that weird to say!) and so honored to be along for the ride!!!
    I'm so excited to see where God is taking you & your family....
    I love you, my friend!

  8. It's so easy to forget taking care of yourself when you have so many others to care for, but you're good in following this call. When you take care of yourself you are better equipped to help others. This same is true of not only our bodies, but our hearts, minds, soul, and spirit. When we take the time to sit at the Lord's feet, we can be a conduit of His love to others.

  9. Jill! So excited to follow you in this next chapter : ) Blessings upon blessings to you!


  10. way to go jill...looking forward to what God has in store for you!

  11. I am so excited to see where the Lord is going to take you! <3


© 2012 Designed by The Vintage Pear
© No content of this blog may be used or re-printed without written permission